It's really hurting.  I'm worried.  I'm doing pretty good with keeping the anxiety at bay, but that's only because I haven't missed a long run... yet.  If it's not better by tomorrow, I'm gonna miss one on Sunday.  I'm not happy about this.  It's very disheartening.  I decided to get the boot out of the laundry room last night.  I'm wearing it today.  I'm not doing a whole lot today.  I'm trying to avoid the questions.  I don't want to explain why 50 times today.  I know that will just bring on the depression and anxiety. 
It's possibly a metatarsal fracture.  I know.  (I tend to think the worst).  It won't show up on a x-ray for a while, so there's no sense in wasting money on one.  It seems to get worse with every run. Thursday morning's 10 miles wasn't pleasant, but I was able to get through it.  The pain afterwards was pretty bad.  I plan to continue training on the bike if I can't run, but I still hate it.  I haven't run anything longer than 17 and I'm still 6 weeks away.  I have to be able to run at least two or three more long runs before the marathon.  I know I have to stay off of it, but my brain is fast-forwarding to an image of me limping or crawling to the finish line.  (Which is fine, as long as I finish.) 
Please pray that my foot heals.  FAST.  
Maybe this is a lesson for me.  Maybe my bad feet genes are finally catching up with me.  I think God is teaching me to be less prideful.  It's working.
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